I don’t like to judge bboys – or people for that matter –
but when I first heard of Thesis and saw footage of him, I always felt this vibe
that he was arrogant. I cannot exactly remember what the heck I was watching
but it all came down to superficial feelings of first impressions. And we all
know these feelings may or may not be deceiving. Still, there was no denying that
this bboy is a beast on the floor – it didn’t matter what his personality was,
I had to admire his talent.
Later I stumbled on a copy-paste someone had taken from his
tumblr. It was an expression of his feelings as someone under the scrutiny of
public expectations and his struggle to stay true to the hip hop culture. I
realised then that he actually had A LOT of soul. It's not what he said - it's how he said it.
In his message he says, “I refuse to go any further in the competition
field until this scene appreciates it for what it is and not what it was… I
lost a battle recently and was told that the reason I lost was because I am
known to have done better”. He also says “things can be so misunderstood in
this time of age with all the media resources and of course the public point of
views… people will fight and fight and fight till no one wins and when it comes
down to it, it’s usually people of the unknown and the unknowing”.
Those are very strong words that speak only of the truth. It aligned with what I believed especially when he mentioned that opinions of today are derived from Anons who absolutely know nothing about
the culture. Last night I was watching a few old footage of IBE and there was
something utterly disturbing about the fact that bboys who were busting out
huge explosive moves received so much props from the audience but bboys who
stayed true to the culture; who danced, who did foundations and who listened
to the music, silently received the deadest crowd you could ever imagine. The people had expectations and
they won’t reciprocate unless delivered. The evolution of bboying over the
years have created a generation that knows very little about its origins. There’s
a lot more to just bboying than just the dance itself. People need to go back
to its roots. When Thesis said, “originality is losing it’s foundation”, I completely agree!
To have to lose a battle with no objective reasoning apart from being known to have done better is a total disregard of a bboy's own growth and creativity. All the crowd wants are bboys going wild and eventually losing what it means to dance. This reminds me of that interview with Roxrite where he tells us how people used to give him crap for winning battles that he didn't deserve - his opponents clearly had better moves than him. A few years later the same people would come back to him apologizing because they finally understood what he does - he keeps it real and hip hop.
I can understand Thesis' argument about finding fame. I’m not
some famous bgirl who would know it,
but it was always something I had wondered about and became fascinated
with. Bboying had always been quite a local scene; titles and reputations
gained had always been local. However, as it grew it brought another title –
fame. Soon bboys are left battling for a title against the rest of the world –
quite literally. It struck me when he said “I’ve had international classes with
40+ students but when I have a class where I’m from I have 5 or 6.” That sentence struck a chord in me. In the
level of fame bboys reach a wider audience but always in the expense of the
closest and dearest. It's something that's often said but never spoke truer than in this context. If our closest is the Hip Hop Culture itself, then it’s
what we lose when we embrace fame.
Anyways, mad respect for this bboy who's taking the initiative of stepping out of the limelight just to save hip hop culture for what it is.
I don't know the date when this was posted but you've got to be kidding me if you expect me to file through his tumblr just to search for it. Below is the full message.
I come to a point that this competitive thing might not be for me, for I am a man of peace and unity. Don’t get me wrong, I love the excitement of the battle and the energy that forces you to go beyond your limits. I could never regret one battle because it always provides that feeling no matter what the outcome is. Truthfully, I am burning out. Not because I can’t think of any new moves or I think I am “falling off”. Honestly, I haven’t felt stronger and developed in all my years of dancing. The thing is I know my rank, reputation and most importantly my dedication towards this culture and I refuse to go any further in the competition field until this scene appreciates it for what it is and not what it was.
Things can be so misunderstood in this time of age with all the media resources and of course the public point of views. For example, comments on Youtube have turned into an argument and not a opinion. What bugs me is that people will fight and fight and fight till no one wins and when it comes down to it, it’s usually people of the unknown and the unknowing.
The knowledge is lost in translation because the scene is spoiled. Yeah I said it. The scene is spoiled. I lost a battle recently and was told that the reason I lost was because I am known to have done better. I was shocked when I heard this. Not only because I feel like the battle should be judged on whats happening at the moment instead of the past, but mainly because it shows that evolution has been planted in a soil that cannot adapt and grow… Like I said, I know where I stand in this dance and no one can tell me otherwise and I come to a point where I must take bigger responsibility and become the planter in my own fields.
I respect the fact that you can read this so I will be completely honest with you… The scene has been fucked up to me lately. I’ve had support from many others but if you really look at it, I’ve always done my own thing and rejected “sponsors” and other organizations that only try to use me. Most people don’t understand how much work I put into this culture to help out promoters and events to make happen mainly to continue the growth of motivation and keep eyes open towards different angles of inspiration. To me, that’s what it’s about. But when I put in my time to complete things, I always end up getting fucked.
I’m not going to lie, most of the competitions I enter I end up winning. Now that people are tired of me winning, they can’t except it and do anything in their power to stop my streaks and of course use my experience in experimenting with new moves and styles to contribute into my own. Tell me that isn’t backwards…
I’ve said this before in a interview a while ago, “we are not athletes, we are artists”. This is truth. In the generation I started in, we would get down for the feeling of joy we would get and because we would love to create new moves, only because that was the funnest part. I don’t remember thinking once about being famous off of this or being a rich man off of it. I’m still broke! To be honest, when I first started I thought we were “bringing back” bboying. Then I came to learn that I was totally wrong and I was surprised on how much people felt the same love and joy for this movement. People will lose their selves through the fame. Believe me, I’ve seen it and felt it and because of that I know now where I stand and what I need to do. Step down.
Hopefully promoters and people that get caught up in the money pressure and fame understand that it is beyond that and realize why they get caught up in it. Because they’re trying too hard to go against the roots. Originality is losing it’s foundation and it’s killing me. I’ve been forgotten. I’ve been told things were my fault when they weren’t. I’ve been begged to come out to a jam, win, and not get paid. I’ve been misunderstood to the point where my movements don’t mean anything to the first eye. I’ve had international classes with 40+ students but when I have a class where I’m from I have 5 or 6. I’ve been abandoned and cheated by some of my main loved ones over it. Trust me, I have been through it all and yet I still stand strong into what I stand for. Life/HipHopCulture. I will never turn my back and never forget where I come from so I can keep growing with my own foundation and knowledge about not only just the dance, but life itself.
I put my mind, body, heart and soul into this culture and as the Thunderbird I will continue to do so in another form. You don’t have to understand exactly what I’m talking about, but as long as you can feel it and hopefully be inspired on this. This is real talk from the heart as an expression for an understanding of clarity. Something that should be acknowledged more, truthfully. Stay true my followers, and when times turn on you, create your own path. No matter which way you go, the destination will be worth it.
I promise.
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I have about four more competitions left that are confirmed. After that, I will continue on doing what I love and that is spreading inspiration from teaching, throwing events and other art forms. Hit me up for judging gigs PEACE.